Sometimes life gets way too hectic for me. When I think that I've taken on the worst, another batch of life gets thrown at me. That isn't to say that I'm ungrateful for "the worst" in my life. It's a great way of learning what I can and can not handle, what I'm able to emotionally blow off and what will really get to me and in most instances, when my friends will be there for me.
Since I last updated, which was in february, I have had one heck of a semester trying to recover from the fall of 2010. I finally got my GPA to a point where I won't be concerned that I'm falling into my old bad, bad habits. I've grown extremely close to some of my sisters and distant from others. I've become an Alumnae from my chapter, though I completely plan on supporting my sisters and helping out as often as I possibly can (I have a feeling that if I just up and disappeared that several of them would completely kill me). I've declined a position on next fall's homecoming committee so that I can better handle my classes in the fall and build my GPA back up from my slight tumble.
Tim has been accepted to the University of Miami in Oxford, Ohio. With his tuition being waived, receiving a $15,000 stipen and a possible $4,000 to be thrown at him, I'm quite proud and though it has been a struggle, I've become more and more accepting of the fact that he may spend the next 3-6 years in Ohio rather than year. At first I was devestated by the idea, there were plenty of "how do we handle this?" late night talks and we've come to a conclusion, for now. As I've told everyone who has asked (and there have been several) we're going to see how this first year being "for serious" long distance goes and then reevaluate how we handle our relationship from there. There is no intention of breaking things off though, which we're both happy about.
Lately, we've been reading "The 5 love languages" per suggestion from one of my sisters, Kendall, who just got married and has also dealt with a long distance relationship (her fiancee at the time was living in Kentucky while she was here in MO). It's been an interesting read and for those of you who haven't read it, I wouldn't suggest it exactly, but I wouldn't tell you not to read it. The basic idea is that through reading this you'll find your partner's pirmary "love language" and know how to speak to them and show them how much you love them through that. The languages are:
1. Words of Affirmation
2. Quality Time
3. Gifts
4. physical touch
5. acts of service.
If you know yourself at all, you'll probably be able to tell which is your primary right off the bat, but you may also have a close second, too. Will this book help us with our long distance relationship? I'm not sure, I know it's been an interesting read and then to compare to our relationship but there are times in the book where I can't help but think "Ok, that's just ridiculous".
I have also been reading the Harry potter books for the very first time, curtosey of my soulmate Allison. I've only gotten through the first two (the second I practically finished in a day) and I'll be getting the others tonight from Allison at one of our newly initated sisters (Casey) Harry Potter Party. I'm hoping to finish the series before the very last movie comes out, or at least with in a week of the movie coming out. Here's hoping!
I have also also been reading "The Curious Case of the Dog in the Nighttime". For those of you who don't know, it's a book about a kid (teenager) who has Autism. It's actually an interesting read and insight into the mind of a person who has autism. But with the other books hanging out in my (heavy) messanger bag/purse, I haven't gotten more than a few chapters through it.
I had planned on taking a summer math class to get it out of the way but it had been canceled (a week before it started and two weeks after the payment was due, ugh). So with it being summer and Tim leaving prematurely before it's over, I've been spending the majority of my time with him. I've been trying to get as much "STL" in his system as possible (though I don't know if he realized that). So far we've had every Saturday this summer (and for the rest of the summer) planned. Yesterday, we went to the Zoo and I conqured my fear of sharks by petting a few of them at the Caribbean Cove stingray (and now shark) exhibit. Next weekend we're going to a wedding, then six flags. The following weekend is the beginning of my birthday celebrations and we're going to start it with a tour of Anheuser Busch. The weekend after that (the last weekend of July) will be my 3rd annual birthday camping trip. We've got about 15 people going this year (so far and if no one backs out, that is).
I've found that I've grown more impatient with most people. I feel that part of this is because I've become more impatient with myself. I haven't consistantly worked out in a year and a half, part of this is due to the fact that I've been so insanely busy but the even bigger part of that is that I haven't had the motivation for it. I've been realizing a lof of my own faults lately, I feel this is because I've gained weight and through seeing that I've become much more analytical of every other part of me as well.
That being said, I've decided that my birthday will mark the end of negative outlooks, the excessive cussing, attitudes and moodiness. Granted this will be something I have to work towards as bad habits are the worst to get rid of, but 23 is one of my very favorite numbers and I intend on making it one of my very favorite years (starting with my birthday celebrations).
So that's all for now! Let's hope I can keep this updated from here on out. :)
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